February 18th, 2004 - Kirst

Okay, I’m late, shit, sorry, fuck... So, how’s life? Good for me too... Ever noticed how many twats there are out there? Amazing really. Like people who is blingin’ in der ‘eavy stuffs... And teachers!! Jeez aren’t they fuckers?! I have to do Dance at school and we haven’t needed kit for about 3 weeks so I get bollocked at today for not bringing it!! Who needs Dance on their CV?! "What can you do that you feel would help us in our business?" "Oh I can use school props to dance with top hats for no apparent reason" Anyway that’s one rant over; we’re starting now!! Valentines Day... Why do schools ALWAYS have a Valentines Disco?! Anyways... Valentines Day is pretty good I guess, if you’re in love it’s like, the occasion of the year. Great really :) True love’s a strange thing... I mean you think of the guy of your dreams... Let’s have a think here. Tall? Slim-ish? Nice skin, funny, nice eyes, caring, loving, the works. I mean jeez I’m in love, no doubt... It might last forever, might not. Who knows in this world? "Y’should live for the moment" then people tell you that you should be prepared. For what, the end of the world?! Love though... It’s an over-used word half the time... Am I contradicting myself? Love’s a beautiful thing, emotion, feeling, reality, happening, whatever, but if it goes wrong it feels like there’s not much else in the world going right. I guess there’s not. It’s like a fuel for us. Someone says "I love you" Do you ever doubt it? What if you don’t love them? Do you say it not to hurt them? That’s another thing, hurt. Hurt and Love come hand in hand they say... In a way, I guess they do... If you find that special someone though, you’re pretty lucky. Being so close to someone you’d do anything for them, feel so at ease, it’s really nice, to say the least. Valentines... Hm... Secret Admirers! If you ever get one of those cards signed ‘???’ dosen’t it piss you off? Not that I’ve ever had one, haha, I’m not that social. Ahh fun... And people always say that "Roses are red, violets are blue..." thing... "USE SOMETHING ORIGINAL!! What’s wrong with tulips?!?!" You gotta love it... I’m not really sticking to one part because well there’s so much to say about it, and yet nothing at all, you know? My friend has a real hard time with love. I did for a while, thought I was in love, and I got hurt! But y’get over it. And she’s found the guy of her dreams and she’s happy. It works out, even if not forever. I guess change kinda comes into it all too. It’s a pretty big fucking issue, and you onlth really think about it, well, how often? ... So yeah, Valentines Day? Fake, Shit, Real, Lovely? You decide, there’s not a correct/in-correct answer, just opinion, like pretty much everything else in the world...The only things we know for sure is that we breathe oxygen more than anything else, heh. But yeah, people say love is a connection, but at the end of the day, isn’t it a feeling? Not a reality, not something you touch or see. I know you can feel it and see if people are in love sometimes. But love itself, well it’s confusing, but, yeah, we wouldn’t be where we are without it. People kill their selves and other people for love of their country... Wrong or right, it’s true right? People kill their selves and their wives and/or children. Wrong or right, it happens. I guess the hurt and love thing is more related with things like that. Overall, it’s a situation without a win or lose. Something bad always happens in love but mostly, it’s strong enough to carry everyone through, whatever way it means. There’s some unlucky ones though, and my heart goes out to them, in a way. Fuckers, sometimes it’s easier that way... So, yeah, hope I made sense and sorry again for being late. Happy Valentines Day for the 14th, and I’ll catch y’all laters. Take care, Kirst