December 28th, 2003 - Kirst

Firstly, sorry, sorry I’m late with this. I’m not one for organisation...So, hope you all had a very Merry Christmas and that you’re all doing good. And I warn you, I’m gonna go on a Life Coach Rant. Heh, read ya’ heart out. So, onto the actual column...If anyone actually reads this damn thing, haha, the feeling of talking to ones self... OK, I’ll admit, I am fucking stuck to what to write about at this point. I read a column by someone out of a band, on www.stateofemergency.net and it really was emotional. He spoke about how he’d done something wrong, bad, terrible, however you want to say it...And how he’d never forgive himself and how really bad it seemed...It was a compelling read, and my heart goes out to him. He’s sorry, you can tell; isn’t that enough for some people? I guess not. Hell, for some things sorry isn’t enough... I mean, we eat junk food ‘cause it’s bad for us, we break rules ‘cause we’re not supposed to, we do bad things...why? To look better in front of someone? Because we need to? Jesus I don’t know, I don’t know what the hell I’m talking about half the time! Example, example, example...Your mom!! Haha, I have a thing for moms. Kidding. Anyway, your mom or parent or guardian or whoever says...Don’t go to a chat room...then you want to go to a chat room. Not everyone does, but some people...I did. But I don’t any more hehe, anyway... People do things wrong. More often than not, they try to make them OK again. Big argument comes about, you say sorry. Sometimes people say that you don’t mean it. They say you don’t know the meaning of the word. I dunno...You try and make something of a bad situation and you’re pushed away...Then you just wallow in self pity wishing it to go away hehe... The truth is, the world’s made up of mistakes. Hey, did someone invent, I dunno, toasters by mistake? (Probably not but come on people, go with the flow here!) Things happen, either for the good or the bad. What you make of it and how you deal with it, I guess is what makes it...How ever it turns out. OK, New Year coming up. Usually I don’t do New Year Resolutions but here’s a list: - Make sense - Don’t talk about toasters - Get organised - Don’t eat so much before bed I puke - Stop falling over my own feet. Hmm, I really should be sacked. Haha. Jess, you’re an angel hehe. By the way...All worship Dennis Norden; the old sock! Thanks for reading more of my ramblings. Happy New Year to you all!! Have a good time. Kirst xxx