January 26th, 2005 - Kirst

Hey there everyone, good Christmas and New Year? I haven't written in a while, so I apologise for that. Actually, I don't what I'm gonna write about so I'll have a look around... I'll probably start rambling... computer... TV... photo frame... old clock... hmm... clashing... A lot of our world really is material excess isn't it? Well, imagine, I couldn't write this without my computer and Jon wouldn't have anything to write about without the hundreds of News channels... speaking of news, all I've heard of is death...The tsunmi... horrible disaster, so many personal stories, children's dreams dashed by a sudden unbelieveable force of nature... mothers choosing what child to let go so they could save their other and swim to the surface... a newly wed, losing her husband and family, the only one to survive... Jodie Jones murdered in a horrific way by her own boyfriend... they're blaming Marilyn Manson you know... the art work on his website... it's so easy to pin it on the talented, different donkey isn't it? ... Is it his fault the boy was a complete and utter headcase? The way he tricked her family... There's been so many deaths reported... The baby killed by a doctor using forceps to deliver her. I was delivered with forceps... It makes you think really... Everything these days has to make you think... Can you walk anywhere these days on your own without glancing back behind your shoulder? I can't walk home from school without the "rival" school's twats shouting something at me. My friends have been beaten up....I wonder if our "rival" school's pupils think they have an image to look upto? It's a shame, I know two nice people in that school... There could be many more. I suppose it's how they see you and you see them... I don't know, it's like modern day life is a challenge to out do sometihng or someone, like an enemy we can't even see. Maybe the enemy is ourselves? Do we create the problems? I don't know. I'm not perfect, and no one I know is... Maybe that's our problem. God dammit now I need to go on a journey for self fulfilment... Like I'll ever get round to that... Seriously... I'm a peer mentor now, I have to help younger kids at my school with whatever problems they have. Today they trained us for it, and told us not to advise them but to "reflect" whatever they say... e.g. if they say "i'm being bullied, the girls in the class are horrible, they pull my hair and everything", you would be expected to reply with "You're being bullied? So they pull your hair?" ... I was disgusted! Those kids aren't coming in to be patronised!!! Obviously there's limits to what you can say, and what has to be taken to a teacher, I know all that, I also know not to influence them, to guide them... not to "reflect" them... Pffhhh, society these days... We have the right idea eh peeps? Anyway.. I don't know much about the world, but I know it's changing... (as my column has done repeatedly this time :P) so, we're gonna have to look out for each other! You feeling lucky, punk? ... That was terrible. Today is different from yesterday, and tomorrow will be different too... But in the eyes of whoever/whatever entity (if there is such a thing) it's just a blip in the universe... But this blip.. It's OUR blip, and without sounding like a hippie or whatever name it's gonna be, we gotta make the most of it.. have a damn good laugh, make the right choices. Who knows where it could lead? (If you come back in 20 years and see me writing for this as my full time job, and not helping people or making records, then you can laugh at me :P :D) Don't dwell on my rambling, just ponder upon it eh? OK, thanks for reading, guys. Until next time! ... Much love. Mook xXx